lol, even though I'm no longer in your neck of the orange groves, I still like to pop in and see what's on your mind. Not sure if I'm on your list from before, but please include me. Also, I'll be posting more often again, now that I've settled in up here and reorganized things to allow more time for my web life. -life be with you
I'm checking out your website. It's very interesting. I'm still reading through it. I do a question, as some of the ideas I may know by other terms/phrases. On the introductory page, it says:
... we channelled a current of "crisis energy" into the two sets of symbols (Crisis energy is the energy used by prophets, madmen, 'shooting stars', and other visionaries, used to create movements like Christianity or Islam). We then anchored our souls in this process, so that we would begin to merge with it, creating a unified standard of growth towards enlightenment.
Does this crisis energy have a kabbalistic name that i would recognize? What exactly are you referring to? Is this different than or similr to the kundalini energy? or the empty force of martial arts? something like that? You mentioned that those in your group invoked it ... can it be invoked spontaneously or is it always a deliberate act? Can you elaborate on this? Thanks.
No prob. The Kabbalistic concept that might correspond best is something like the force of the punitive Shekinah, or maybe the more primordial aspect of the woman Wisdom from Proverbs. In fact, part of the invocation included the Daughter of Fortitude text (from their Enochian channelings, which were pretty apocalyptic). The man who had originally done a similar working ended up losing many material possessions, his marraige, and many other things that were very valuable to him. He explained that when he did the invocation he didn't know what to expect. So, going into it knowing what we're up against, it's a bit different. It's not easy, but as more people connect to Kadmon, it distributes the weight across each of them, and it becomes easier for all of us. The energy itself might best be described as possessing the feeling of something wild or untamed, in the sense that it is somewhat chthonic. This is only my feeling of it though.
It can definitely be invoked spontaneously now. The initial channel had to be carved out by a carefully written ritual, but now it seems to spread on its own. Ultimately I don't want Kadmon to be tied to any one practice or religion, but to be a system whereby anyone can come to a greater understanding of themselves and the world around them. My personal goal is to get the ball rolling for Ach'dut, but there are other Kadmon nets, and they have their own goals that I'm not even privy to. Sometimes the other nets consult me, but for the most part they operate autonomously.
From your description, it sounds like the hashra'ah energy of the Shechinah. Interesting. Knowing this adds another dimension as to why I am, for all practical purposes, shunned and not helped by the community. No one wants to "share the burden" of what was invoked upon me during ritual conversion. I've been made to deal with it alone. Clearly, no one expects me to live.
It also sheds light on why the orthodox typically have a problem accepting "reform" converts - likely, the orthodox don't think the reform can get this ritual right. It has nothing to do with halacha and everything to do with this ritual.